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how is it my fault??? WRONG AGAIN. I did not send you mixed signals! That was all in your head!!! UGGGGHHHH.

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Seriously???? How could I have been more clear about wanted to be friends and only friends? I specifically said to him, “I think we should just be friends.” HOW IS THAT NOT CLEAR. TELL ME. HOW. Boys are stupid. I think I’m going to be a dickless chick for a while. I really don’t understand him! How did I give him mixed signals? I didn’t!! I was being friendly, that’s what friends DO. Also, another thing that pisses me off: we had been texting as FRIENDS for a while, saying that we should hang out (it was really him saying this and me agreeing, the important part is that he was instigating it. I did want to hang out though, I like being friends with him! FRIENDS.), and then when we do hang out, he sends me a text later that night basically saying that he wants to try again! NO. THAT’S NOT HOW THAT WORKS. GAHHHHH. Moral of the story: boys are stupid.

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This was an actual (texting) conversation.

This happened over the course of approximately 4 days, starting after we had hung out in a small group.
Dan: What's up with us Emily? I still like you and it seems like you still like me and we're still hanging out. I don't get it.
Me: (waits 4 days to answer) Hey so I wanted to talk to you after class, but didn't get a chance to. I feel like we all hung out, and that's what friends do, so I don't really know what to say.
Dan: Am I right do you still have a thing for me?
Me: Not really anymore, it's kind of waned into friendship...
Dan: If it's 100% just me then we can chalk this up as your fault but I don't really want to put myself in a position where I feel a person's being waffly and giving me mixed messages and I get hung up over them. It's not a fun place to be.
Me: (in my head) Waffly? Waffly?!?!?!?! There are no waffles here!!! Only pancakes!!!
Me: (in the conversation) I didn't mean to give you mixed messages on Friday, if I did then it was unintentional and I'm sorry.
Dan: I think it's the entire situation. I don't get why we stopped what we started, I'm not going to, and it'd be best for me to move on. I dont have a problem being friendly when I see you but me inviting you over and texting frequently is going to be a situation of only one party being really satisfied with it.
Me: So are you saying that you don't want to be friends anymore; you just want to be friendly?
Dan: I think so. If you care enough to talk to me in person about it then we can. But right now it's you want to be friends I want to be more so I'm just miserable about it and for once I don't feel like going through that.
Me: I do want to talk in person, that's why I waited until today to talk to you, because I thought we would talk after class.
Dan: Honestly I figured so, but I also had a physics midterm right after and had decided before class I coudln't be hung up over a conversation like that when I had to focus on an exam.
Me: Ok. Well I do want to talk.
Dan: Ok. Well I'm pretty much down for whenever. If you want to try and fit it in between whatever you have after Diff Eqs that's fine I guess but outside of times when I'm in class I can always fit in a talk.
Me: Alright.