Thoughts and shit.: Archive

Feb 5th

13,246 notes

Also,

how is it my fault??? WRONG AGAIN. I did not send you mixed signals! That was all in your head!!! UGGGGHHHH.

Oct 27th

Actual Conversation (cont.)

Seriously???? How could I have been more clear about wanted to be friends and only friends? I specifically said to him, “I think we should just be friends.” HOW IS THAT NOT CLEAR. TELL ME. HOW. Boys are stupid. I think I’m going to be a dickless chick for a while. I really don’t understand him! How did I give him mixed signals? I didn’t!! I was being friendly,...

Oct 27th

4 tags

This was an actual (texting) conversation.

 This happened over the course of approximately 4 days, starting after we had hung out in a small group.
Dan: What's up with us Emily? I still like you and it seems like you still like me and we're still hanging out. I don't get it.
Me: (waits 4 days to answer) Hey so I wanted to talk to you after class, but didn't get a chance to. I feel like we all hung out, and that's what friends do, so I don't really know what to say.
Dan: Am I right do you still have a thing for me?
Me: Not really anymore, it's kind of waned into friendship...
Dan: If it's 100% just me then we can chalk this up as your fault but I don't really want to put myself in a position where I feel a person's being waffly and giving me mixed messages and I get hung up over them. It's not a fun place to be.
Me: (in my head) Waffly? Waffly?!?!?!?! There are no waffles here!!! Only pancakes!!!
Me: (in the conversation) I didn't mean to give you mixed messages on Friday, if I did then it was unintentional and I'm sorry.
 Dan: I think it's the entire situation. I don't get why we stopped what we started, I'm not going to, and it'd be best for me to move on. I dont have a problem being friendly when I see you but me inviting you over and texting frequently is going to be a situation of only one party being really satisfied with it.
Me: So are you saying that you don't want to be friends anymore; you just want to be friendly?
Dan: I think so. If you care enough to talk to me in person about it then we can. But right now it's you want to be friends I want to be more so I'm just miserable about it and for once I don't feel like going through that.
Me: I do want to talk in person, that's why I waited until today to talk to you, because I thought we would talk after class.
Dan: Honestly I figured so, but I also had a physics midterm right after and had decided before class I coudln't be hung up over a conversation like that when I had to focus on an exam.
Me: Ok. Well I do want to talk.
Dan: Ok. Well I'm pretty much down for whenever. If you want to try and fit it in between whatever you have after Diff Eqs that's fine I guess but outside of times when I'm in class I can always fit in a talk.
Me: Alright.

Oct 27th

2 notes

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Oct 3rd

I feel so lonely.

Aug 20th

sunflowersforamy: It’s a universal truth that no matter how often you hear that it’s important to let your feelings out, people like you better when you bottle.

May 11th

Dude.

I’m falling back into that funk I was in during part of senior year. Remember that? Yeah. It feels like I’m going back to that. I don’t want to. I’m really sorry about Oreo, she was a great cat (to you anyway (: ).

Apr 18th

Too many people I know in real life are following...

No me gusta. My flippin suitemate! Really??? How did she even find me? Tay too. *sigh* And now I feel obliged to follow them back. BITCH PLEASE, THAT ISN’T HAPPENING.

Apr 13th

let's do the fork in the garbage disposal.

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Apr 5th

228 notes

Apr 4th

2 tags

Mar 31st

173 notes

Strike out everything you've done. →

tiberiusthenarwhal: chronicfatshionista: kcdreams: socialllama: welcome-to-losertown: 1. Had a beer. 2. Been drunk. 3. Touched a real gun. 4. Done drugs. 5. Wrote on a bathroom stall. 6. Read a George Orwell book. 7. Had sex. 8. Got into a fist fight. 9. Used Twitter. 10. Listened to Lady Gaga. 11. Been in a car accident. 12. Gotten suspended. 13. Gotten expelled. 14. Got a computer...

Mar 31st

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Mar 29th

Mar 13th

I do this thing when I’m around people where I can just put everything that happened in a box and forget about that box for a while. It’s still there, but it’s just a box in the corner of my attic that I know is there but don’t want to open because I know what’s in it. Occasionally, during the day I take a peek into it, when I can’t stop or control myself, but it’s just a glance. But then at the...

Mar 13th

Earthquakes and tsunamis are hitting Japan. Crazy shit is going on in the Middle East. The world is in chaos and all I can fucking think about is how much I miss her and how much I’ll miss her when she’s gone.

Mar 12th

3 tags

Fuck.

Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

Mar 12th

3 tags

Mar 11th

111 notes

I’m not there for Em, and I wish I was. So much shit is happening right now, all to her, and she needs a best friend hug. First her nana died, then tonight she found out that one of her best friends is cutting herself. She’s not suicidal, but she’s still cutting, and apparently it’s getting worse and it could lead to that point, either accidentally or on purpose. Em really needs someone right now...

Mar 10th

SO MUCH HAPPY

EDIT: This statement is now negated.

Mar 7th